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6/24/08 01:02 pm - Dream interpretation?

I dreamed I had a stroke last night and it was really scary.  I can't get it out of my head. I wonder if anyone on my f-list has any experience with interpreting dreams...

I dreamed I was sleeping and was woken by a horrible feeling. It felt sort of like all the blood had rushed to my head and the pressure was building, like my head was going to burst. Then the feeling went away, and I realized my face felt strange and I couldn't move my body at all. I lay there, terrified and wondering how long it would be till I was found, and the rushing feeling happened twice more. Eventually I was able to force my body to move. I stood up, but my arms and legs felt really heavy. My face felt weird, so I looked in the morror and the right side of my face was grey and drooping. I tried to ring my family to help me, but I couldn't get through to anyone and when I finally did get through, I couldn't talk properly.

Does anyone have any ideas what a dream like this could mean?
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6/24/08 08:14 am

MW has gone down again :o(

5/31/08 10:01 pm - Britain's Got Talent


Couldn't be more chuffed :oD
Current Mood: ecstatic

4/5/08 10:45 am - NO SPOILERS!!!

I haven't seen the latest ep of Torchwood yet, so I really didn't appreciate the HUGE SPOILERS that littered my friends page this morning. 

The cut button is there for a reason people!

Current Mood: annoyed

3/23/08 09:12 am - Chronicles of Narnia....good?

After watching the Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe for the twentieth time, I decided I want to read the books. Has anyone on my flist read them? Just wondered if they're good...I mean I know they're good, but would they be interesting for a grown-up? Also, which order should they be read? I heard that they should be read in the order they were published, but I read somewhere they should be read in chronological order (e.g. starting with the Wizard's nephew).
Current Mood: tired

2/16/08 04:21 pm - Hollyoaks....

Come on Max and OB, get with it...you guys are SO meant to be together!
Current Music: Hollyoaks omnibus on TV
Current Mood: ditzy

1/29/08 07:13 am - Long Lost Movies

OMG, I'm watching 'My Boyfriend's Back', a film I totally loved as a kid, but haven't been able to find for years. Someone finally made a torrent with it *yay*!

If you don't know it, it's about a guy who dies while trying to impress a girl, but comes back as a zombie. They have to fight to be together due to the fact the town is prejudiced against...well...the undead, and also because the guy starts to eat people. It's supposed to be a metaphor for racism, I guess. Anyway, I thought it was hilarious years ago...I'm interested to see if I still laugh at it fifteen years later :)

Oh, and total SQUEE! Jack from 'Lost' just walked into the scene! He's all teenager with a quiff and everything! Awwww, cute!
Current Mood: bouncy

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11/16/07 04:33 pm

I'm feeling very down right now. I feel like just giving up. I hate my life.

11/13/07 05:04 pm - Xmas card list

Copying Suzvoy...I'd like to send Christmas cards to my flist, so anyone who doesn't mind doing so, please e-mail me at fortuna.phoenix@ntlworld.com with your home address :) Please don't put your address in a comment to this post, as it will be viewable by anyone.

OMG, I can't believe it's nearly Christmas, I am SO excited *bounces* :D

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11/8/07 07:01 pm - Name ideas.....

Giant hugs to everyone who wished me a happy birthday yesterday....thankyou all so much, that was really nice to see when I checked my f-list...totally made my day :D

I had a good birthday...I didn't do much, just went to the pics to see Stardust (really good by the way, if a bit slow to get going) with my sister. 

In other news....I have a new puppy! She is 8 weeks old and a Greyhound/Deerhound cross. She's black with a white chest, a white chin and white toes...she's adorable. She's also mental. At the moment she's dragging the floorbruss around the kitchen by its bristles. 

My other dog - a yorkie who is 12 years old - is a bit frightened of her. Usually he's okay with other dogs, but she seems to think that because he's the same size as her that he's a puppy...and she's treating him that way. Luckily, he's incredibly energetic for an older dog, so hopefully he'll get used to her. 

I need some name ideas...something unusual...I want to name her after a fictional character (books, TV, movies, whatever). Any help?
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11/5/07 12:47 pm

 Well, I'm back. 

I didn't have the teeth taken out. But I didn't chicken out either, which makes me feel a bit better. I went in there, shaking like a leaf and crying. The dentist (who was really nice) tried to calm me down a bit and went over all my options, but I still decided to have the sedation. But when they lay me back in the chair and went to give me the injection, I had a severe anxiety attack. All of a sudden, I just couldn't breathe and I was wheezing for them to get my sister (who was waiting outside). The nurse had to talk me down and get me breathing properly again and the dentist decided that sedation isn't for me and I'd do much better being knocked out completely. So we're doing that sometime after Christmas *sigh*.

Even though it wasn't my decision not to go through with it, I still feel bad. My sister took the day off to be with me today, my Mum drove us all the way there and I took three days off work also. So now I've got to call them up and see if they want me to come in tomorrow or not. 

Oh well. I least I won't miss out on Bonfire Night tonight *yay*
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11/5/07 08:56 am - Scared...

Last night I found it really hard to get to sleep because I felt sick and my heart was racing. After I eventually fell asleep, I tossed and turned all night. This morning I woke up with a racing heart again and shaking hands. I tried to distract myself by playing Constantine on the PS2, but I kept getting killed, which wound me up even more. Now I'm listening to Christmas music because it's the only soothing music I can find. At the moment I'm trying not to hyperventilate and/or vomit. Why am I feeling like this? 

Because I'm going to the dentist this morning. 

The last time I went I had an anxiety attack before I got there and I wasn't even having anything done. Today I'm going to have many of my back teeth taken out and they have to sedate me because I start to cry and shake really badly when a dentist comes near me. So not only am I scared I'll feel them pulling my teeth, I'm also afraid of the pain of the injection in my hand and I'm terrified I'll be so doped up that I'll blurt out my darkest secrets to my Dad and my sister (who are both taking me so they can force me to go in if I try to chicken out).

I'm not happy. I'm not happy at all.

On a lighter note though, I might try to post an entry afterwards...who knows what I'll write while doped up :D
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Current Music: Celtic Woman - Away in a Manger
Current Mood: scared

10/29/07 09:55 pm - Works file help please???

Does anyone know how I can open a Microsoft Works document without actually having Works on my computer? I don't have Word either and I tried downloading the Microsoft Word Viewer, but that doesn't work. I have Openoffice, but that doesn't work ...some people have offered to convert the file for me but it's a private file so I'd rather not do it that way... can anyone help?

Current Mood: frustrated

10/23/07 07:58 pm - Weigh-in

Well, I lost 1lb this week. 1lb isn't incredible or anything, but I went to Blackpool on Saturday and stuffed my face with donuts and chocolate and cheeseburgers and...you get the point. 

So I guess 1lb is good after all. And I have know officially lost a stone. I got my little sticker and everything, lol.

BTW I started my new job today. They trained me (and the other six newbies who by the way are all teenagers *sigh*) on the tills and it went fine...no angry customers, no broken tills, no wrong change given. I actually sort of started yesterday, but it was just an induction...it was five hours of the most boring videos anyone has ever been forced to watch. They were all about health and safety, etc. The worst thing was, they were really cheesy, you know in that way when the makers of the vid have tried to make it funny and cool in a really obvious way.

I actually started falling asleep during one of the videos.

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Current Music: Pink - Runaway
Current Mood: cheerful

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10/5/07 09:42 pm

 I've gone down two dress sizes! *happydance*

:D
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10/2/07 11:48 am - Weigh in

I'm glad I didn't give up...I've lost 3lbs!!!

*yay*

My hare is finally on the move again, lol :)

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Current Music: Corbin Bleu - Push It
Current Mood: happy

10/2/07 09:48 am

It's weigh-in day again...Oh joy.

A few day ago, I was all ready to give up. I said to myself that if I didn't lose any weight today I was gonna quit...and the thought completely put me on a downer. So much so that when my Grandad asked me how the diet was going, I burst into tears and told him I was quitting.

My Grandad is a wonderful man with the most friendly personality, but hugging a whinging woman so isn't his thing...so he yelled at me instead. And I gotta say - it worked. He told me not to quit and that he was proud of me. And then he told me how hard it had been for him to quit smoking two and a half years ago and how many times he'd wanted to give in. So...I'm not quitting. 

I've found my motivation and I've fallen in love with the song 'Push It' by Corbin Bleu. I liked it anyway, but then I read the lyrics and it's the perfect song for when I'm working out and stuff...

Push it, push it / To the limit, limit / 'cause we're in it to win it / In it to win it / Oh yeah / I realized that this is where my heart is / Now is the time / To finish what I started / Can't worry 'bout what other people might say / It's who I am / Gotta live my dream my own way / Work, work it harder / Gotta take it farther / No holding back / You know we gotta do it right now / Be even better / Work, work together / It's now or never / Show 'em how we shine, we gotta / Push it, push it / To the limit, limit / 'cause we're in it to win it / In it to win it / Oh yeah / Push it, push it / To the limit, limit / Give it all we can give it / We're in it to win it / Oh yeah / Gotta turn it up / That's the way we do it now / No time to stop / The champions are in the house / Yeah, we can be winners cause we understand / Our destiny is right here in our hands / Work, work it harder / Gotta take it further / No holding back / We're reaching for the sky now / Be even better / Work, work together...

Love it.

So...going to my weigh in...wish me luck *crossesfingersandtoes)
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Current Music: Kanye West - Stronger
Current Mood: pessimistic

9/24/07 11:31 am

My lil' girl is coming home today!!! She's been in Cyprus for a week with my Mum and Dad and I've missed her like crazy. Kinda makes that post from a while ago seem a bit silly doesn't it? To think I felt like running away...I wouldn't have lasted a day before running straight back, lol.

I found a home video of her the other day from when she was just a baby (she's five now) and it made me miss her even more. The tape went from just a few minutes after she was born to a few months before her first birthday...I got to see me giving her a bath for the very first time, saw her flirting with Bear in the Big Blue House when he sniffed the TV screen and listened to her saying 'hiya' and 'mum-mum' (the only words she could say at the time) in her cute little baby voice. God, I felt like flying to Cyprus to bring her back after watching all that.

Anyway...enough of the sentimental shit (sorry 'bout that) ;)

I'm going down to my parent's to wait for them to come back, only problem is, I have no clue what time they're coming home, which means I could be sat there all day twiddling my thumbs. Oh well...my baby's coming home!!! *happydance*
Current Music: Pink - Dear Mr President
Current Mood: excited

9/21/07 01:20 am

For weeks, I've been telling myself to sit down and write and tonight I finally did. I tried to get into it, I really did, but I feel like I've completely lost interest in Grudge. I won't abandon it, I promise. I just wanted to say that I don't know when I'll post the next chapter, but Grudge has not and will not be abandoned. I hope you guys can be patient with me :)

Current Mood: guilty

9/18/07 12:49 pm - How Did That Happen???

I went to my regular group meeting today...and I weigh 1 1/2 pounds lighter than I did yesterday *goggles*. Not quite sure how that happened, but yay! Joan (the group leader) adjusted my record, so officially, I've lost 1 lb since last week. So much happier now :D Thank God I didn't give up yesterday.



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Current Music: Pink - I'm Not Dead
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